This will be an update AND a fashion post, get it? ;)
Where did we leave off? Oh, my 10,000th day ... haha ... yea, well let's just say many a thing has changed since I discussed how to celebrate that milestone.
A trip was declared DOA almost as soon as that post went live. However, I thought a trip to a local vineyard might be lovely. Well, everyone I have mentioned this idea to has either declined due to work or lack of interest.
I shrug my shoulders with this one, kids. I'm not sure what's going to happen.
The bigger thing in my life is the departure of my sisters. Mary Ellyn will be moving to Montana next week for (as of now) temporary botany work --- yep, she wears her smarty pants! As you read in the parenthesis, it's labeled a temp position now, but it could very well turn into a full-time job. Until we hear differently, it's a 5-6 months gig. We are all so proud of her cojones and abilities, of course. If you feel like putting out some good vibes into the world, think of her during the cross-country trek.
Emily got a job in Nashville, and she leaves at the beginning of June. Everyone keeps asking me if I'm sad or if I will cry, and to that I say yes (but it really hasn't hit me yet) and no. I hate when my eyes leak. I'm so proud of her too! They are both so lucky to find jobs relating to their studies just mere months after graduating. My other sister Hayley and I haven't been as lucky, even though Hayley is very much making her way there.
After the excitement settled on my shoulders, the air cleared and I realized I'm the only one left. Out of five, I'm the only daughter left in this town. I felt sufficiently sorry for myself for weeks, I'm embarrassed to admit. Feeling sorry for myself turned into a mini-depression. I tried to not mention it to anyone, though there might have been a comment or two that slipped through. The typical "where is my life going" "how did I turn out to be such a failure" and a litany of other self-hating thoughts followed me everywhere. Let me tell you, I couldn't swat those gnats away.
Certainly, I have a better mindset about it than 2-3 weeks ago, but I'm still struggling with my current status. It's imperative that everyone knows I'm not trying to begrudge my sisters' individual successes, no, not ever. Again, I'm super proud, but I will really miss them --- I felt the need to be honest about what was bogging down my mind, and it's a big part of why I haven't been posting.
Beyond all of that Sad-Sack Sandyisms, I changed my hair and I love it. I'm so thankful that one of the stylists at the spa is so willing to work with my day dreams. Kelly, she is the best. No question.
I've been listening to the new Arctic Monkeys, old mixes, and the Dum Dum Girls.
Work is ehhh, but when is it not? haha. I know it could me a million times worse, so I hope with that statement included in my post, it will ward off any bad juju. Please universe, don't rain down on me! ;)
Last, but not least, I finally started Twin Peaks. It's been years in the making, but I've completed season one and now I'm one episode into season two. How the identification of the killer hasn't been spoiled for me is an internet miracle. I have had to bypass a few things, but it's not been difficult to keep a secret exposed 20+ years under wraps.
So, here's to spring, May, and blue hair.
P.S. The Ginge is getting so good at capturing me in a photograph/I'm feeling a little more comfortable with not having control of the camera. Let's all give the man a round of applause for dealing with my neurosis.